All These Waiting Just Worn Me Out Totally

2008-06-03T04:06:00.000-07:00

HELLO BLOGGER, I'M GONNA ABANDON YOU ): BT, YOU'LL NT B DELETED. SO, CATCH ME AT,

SOMEWHERE OVER TH RAINBOW :D

kkthxbye.

Tired, Aching everywhere

2008-06-01T08:28:00.000-07:00

K, hi everyone again. Bck frm tht packed Sat. Effin' tired & legs are hurtin'. #*%@&%*$%#(@$%. Hm, i shall bcktrack till ystd t tell you wht hve been happenin? haha. kk, i'm so long-winded :)

THE QUEST, 31MAY/ MAE'S BDAY :)
Assembled in th morn. Hell lot of ppl la k. omfg. Was sittin' tgt w danny they all. Set out fr th quest at arnd, 10? Th startin' seriously sucks. I cried? nb. I think i'm mad & rly irritated by like i-dont-knw-wht. K, skip tht part. Ltr, we had arguements w danny's grp & was like competin' w em. Cos our checkpoints were th same so somehow, we will meet at every checkpoint? & Apparently, we did nt even look at each other. Funny sio. We attitude em, & vice versa. Hwever, they were leadin' us.

B-U-T, we caught up w them w out wits & was leadin' em :) yay. Shall nt say why. & In th end, we reached th endin' point first :D Hearul's grp won 2nd! & Some other haising ppl tht joined. We did nt win anything bt did learn alot frm this :) Ltr in th night, went t homeclub. Met cin & all. Th club was pretty small. Th band tht were playin' were gd :) Then, went t eat at subway cos i hvn't eaten anything since morn. Ltr, went hme. Daddy fetched me :)

TDAY, AHAPPYDAY.
Woke up, BODY ACHE LIKE FCUK. LEG CRAMP LIKE SHYT. CAN'T RLY WALK. Seriously. It sucks. I walked funny nw. Momma said we're goin' tm. So, just tagged along. So tired la, didn't wanna go at first. Bt, i think goin' is also a gd thing cos i gained three things :D

1. NEW PHONE, K850i. ( FINALLY! )
2. MY PHONE PLAN, UPGRADED T 2000 FREE SMS. ( YAY, x982624327432843246 )
3. Caught 'Th Chronicles Of Narnia'. ( Great movie )

Nw you knw why its a happy day. hahahahahha. Life's gd :D Pictures will b up maybe tmr cos its late alrdy & thr's schl tmr. wtf. Nvrmind.

kthxbye.

A secret

2008-05-28T06:07:00.000-07:00

Hey blogger. Its been long :) I've been bloggin' at lj lately uh. Ohwell. Guess wht, i've deleted like 78 msn contacts ystd due t boredom. I'm left w 293 ppl in my msn. Ohwell, & i realised i don't knw most of th ppl in my contacts -.- Gawd damnit.

Tday, after schl, ko went t meet up w Carlo, so, me & kr followed. Went coffee bean. Felt weird at first bt soon, we're fine & talkin' like so much. Ltr, ko hve t go her pb class then i & kr head t ws t eat. Nw, i'm hme. Super bored + hotttt! Stupid global warmin' la. _l_ fcukzxz it.

Thr's schl tmr like frm 8am t 2pm (?!) wtf. Wht an amazin' holis. Can't even like enjoy or rest fr th time being cos just ended mye? Cmin' bck schl continuously fr like, 2weeks. I swear th stress is torturin' & killin' me. Its just like normal schl days. Might as well label this month as a 'HOLIDAY, MY ASS' month. Gawd! D:

Anyw, someone just told me smth. Made me cry on th spot :( sigh.
PLEASE TAKE GOOD CARE. I WLDN'T WANT ANYTHING T HAPPEN T U.

Dear God,
I hope you'll protect * frm ___. & he'll recover quick.
I'll do anythin' in return fr th health of my bstfriend.
In Jesus name i pray, Amen.

lj

2008-05-26T04:31:00.000-07:00

I've created lj & started bloggin' thr. Wonder if i shld delete bs. hah. We'll see :)
Bt will still blog here as usual.

Click, Click, Click :D

thxbye.

Chan Mali Chan

2008-05-26T03:25:00.000-07:00

Oral's prtty fine earlier :) Can't believe i actually like tlk alott. My first time k (Y) lols. Chan was like smilin' at me like th whole time manxzxz. Wonder if she's laughin' at me or thinks i'm good (?) Sheesh. Bt i tlked like nonsense thruout. Like don't even link t th pic whtsoever. & Th readin' aloud, i stutter quite a few times. Bt overall, its fine :D yay. Glad its overrr.

Guess wht, i don't even knw there's cheena oral on wed only tday. Aud told me & i was like wtf. k, for cheena oral, i cn just prepare t die. Ohya, gt bck report book bt hven't shown momma. Afraid she'll freak out & ground me. When tht actually happens, i cn just b th saddest girl in da world manxzxzx. Argh, everyone's like enjoyin' life while we peeps hve t go bck schl fr endless block-bookin'. omfg.

I so wanna go hang out w coolios at th beachhhh! :)
I pray, I pray, I pray.

kthxbye.

You'll always be my baby

2008-05-25T07:58:00.000-07:00

Gawd, i'm super lazy t post th pics bt i'll still post it fr you guys t see. lols. Bt i won't elaborate bout it. Let th pictures do th tlk :)

Tday, Grandaddy's bday :D

shyt, i had food in my mouth.

haha, th stupid geeky specs. i sure look dorky :}

mother.

grandmomma & grandaddy! (mom's side)

lil cousn, grace.

24May, random day out w momma.

starbucks is th new shitzxz

still hve mny more bt i'm tired. ohwell. upload sm other time k.

thxbye.

Teenage love affair

2008-05-23T07:24:00.000-07:00

one mre thing, i'm currently cravin' for ICE MILO la.
gonna go mke myslf one w my sis nw tho its late! :)
See ya!

2008-05-23T06:41:00.000-07:00

Tday's fine. Went bowlin' w kr/ko/iggy/senkiat at ehub. We played only one freakin' game & it last fr almost an hour cos' i restarted th game A-C-C-I-D-E-N-T-A-L-L-Y. haha.

K, th thing is, i went t press th screen on senkiat's name cos my score was higher than his & i was uber happy. I was like, 'yay, i'm higher than senkiat!' (x4) Then i realsied i pressed th restart button or smth & we cldn't go bck t th main page. Therefore, resultin' in restartin' th whole game. & th pics taken tday is w kr so, will post it up once i got em! :D

Friggin' guilty la. Anyw, fyi, i was th HIGHEST k! hahahaha, th others think tht i purposely restart th game cos' i was losin' or smth. said it was a plot. wtf. lols. Anyw, ltr went t tm t get my necklace :) Happy manxzxz. K, movin' on. Head t ko's hse fr a movie, 'Orphanage'. omffg! Damn scary :( Screamed like 9182623383736 times. Scared my ballzx off la. _l_

Nw, i don't even dare t bathe like alone & guess wht, when i went t bathe tday, i asked my sis t stay outside th toilet & tlk t me. lols! Just hate it when i watch horror movie. Guess i won't get t slp early tnite. So peeps, rmb nt t keep yr hp on silent cos' i may b ringin' you guys up t accompny me tlk till i fall asleep :D :D :D HA-HA.

Ohshyt. Tmr i hve like no plans ): Peeps, ask me out manxzxz! Ohya, i hope everything's fine between us k? No mre grudges whtsoever. If you guys wanna say anythin', feel free t. We're always there :) Guess thts all jokers.

p/s: ah, tht smile of yours! :D Gosh.

kthxbye.

They can nv hve yesterday

2008-05-22T06:07:00.000-07:00

Darls, I'm rlly disappointed & shocked at hw you guys actually are feelin' this way. When M actually told me bout' it, I didn't knw hw t react bt just ask myself 'why you guys are feelin' this way? & why & when has this feelin' started?' Is this hw we're supposed t be? I was rlly upset/angry/disappointed. We're all as one, none is gonna be left out or whatsoever. I hve no idea hw t express hw I feel nw. Stop all this shitzz alrdy. Just hope tmr, everythin' will be fine. imy guys alotttt ): Just wish th plan fr tmr will go well alrite? Swimmin' k?

p/s: we hve nv thought you guys wld feel this way, nv did we.

rmb th days we used t chat bout our hostels. :)
thxbye.

ageekwithoutbraces

2008-05-21T06:41:00.000-07:00

There's photo takin' tmrw. shitzzz. Th photo takin' peeps are so werid as t ask us t take pics on th grass. Guess they thought haisians were goats. omfg, funny or wht! Oh sheesh, kr just msged my hse. hah! funny sio, th operator sound like a human tlkin' in water. *laughs till i roll. & I repeated it like mny times cuz I don't get wht th op is sayin'. She msged me t remind me tht I hve hmewrk for ss which is still in my bag, as clean as my toilet paper. ;}

So, just a short post fr th day then. Ko's ill, she's dwn w feverr ): Get well soon babe! & tht stupid reuby shld go t hell. hahas. He's a dumbidiotic squirrel. lols! kiddin la dearest buddy :D
k, I go do my hmewrk alrdy! :)

start missin' me you kiddos ;D
thxbye.

Just you will do

2008-05-20T07:15:00.000-07:00

Woohoo, I've received your beep! :D omfg. I'm happy kayyyyyyyyy.

Bye.

He told me I was beautiful

2008-05-20T04:40:00.000-07:00

*burps. Hah, just finished dner :) I hve no idea wht t blog bout actually. Hmm, mayb tlk bout ystd. So just gonna bcktrck abit, bear w me a lil, doo-doos :D

K, ystd was vesak day. lols. Nothin' of my concern tho. Went t plaza sing w BryanT & caught 'Made Of Honor' . Nice show, v sweet romantic kinda movie. Ltr went t Bedok 85 t hve our dner & walked t his friend's hse then I tk bus hme. Hme arnd eleven so didn't blog ystd. Was super tired by then. Gosh. K, tday was okay. Nothin' much happened uh. Just tht assembly was rlly sad cos' of th szechuan disaster incident. Rlly v heart-breakin' I swear. Momma just told me a story bout one of th victims when I was tellin' her bout my day.

' There's this primary four girl, who attempt escape from th crumblin' during th quake bt was cut short when one of her classmate grabbed her feet. A slab fell onto her legs, stoppin' her right at th door while her classmate bled t death. 3 days after th quake, th girl was found bt her legs was badly injured tht th doctors had t amputate them 12cm above her knees. '

Cn you imagine? She cnt walk for th rest of her life & she's only ten years old! ): Fcuk. Its damn sad. Nt only her, there's mny others. Most of th kids are traumatized & were livin' in fear & shock. Many cldn't even talk for mths & just noddin' their heads t response. Damn sad la. We're damn fortunate here in sg la. Anyw, gonna end th post w a song. Go check out th lyrics. Meaningful & great song :)

Same script, different cast - Whitney Houston & Deborah

This is a retake of my life, I was his star for mny nights. Now th roles hve chnged, & you're th leadin' lady in his life. Just rmb you've been warned. Enjoy it nw, cos' it won't last. Same script, different cast.
I'm nt hatin', bt I wish th one before me wld hve warned me too.

Thts all folks.
thxbye.

Smile even tho you ain't pullin' through

2008-05-18T06:15:00.000-07:00

Hey mates! I'm a super happy girl now k. Went shoppin' w fam tday. Bought many stuffxzx. Went t Katong Mall t hve lunch at this jap restnt, head t Far East, walked, & t Wisma, t Taka, & t Tamp mall. Long day tho. Walked alot I tell you.

Okay, msn is all rainbow-y la. Cos of th Sichuan thingy I think(?) Mny contacts are hvin rainbows at th front of their nick. I put it too :) Feel so kiddo-ish. Hahaahahahaha. Pictures for tday.

k, thts all for now.
Bye

One Sweet Day

2008-05-17T08:21:00.000-07:00

Hello cool asses. Hve you been missin' me for like th past few hours? :) hah. I'm bck frm my grandmomma's belated mother's day celebration. Its rlly kinda borin' there uh. Supposed t head t homeclub w hill & kim for fml's events tht is held there but realised I hve like family plans? So ya, this is wht I did for my 'wonderful' saturdy. Stayed hme th whole day till 6 plus, left for celebration & home. & Guess wht, danny's sat sure is surprisin' la. His daddy bought him ps3?! wtf. Lucky kiddo. I shall earn for whatever I want? Or mayb smtimes ask for a little :) Daddy said he's gonna brin' me & sis t shop for clothes tmrw! hella excited. Hope he don't make empty promises uh :/

Guess alot of peeps' saturdy are well spent unlike mine. Ko's saturdy is v amazin' uh? (you knw wht i mean uh) haha! Anyw, changed my blog song. Ko intro-ed it t me. Nice song kay. Its 2358pm now. I'm dead beat even tho I did nth & just stayin' home & b a coutch potato. No idea why I'm so tired right now. I wanna go out tmrw! Call/beep/msg me if anyone's free for a movie or smth kay! I don't want t stay hme for god's sake! :} Sheesh, I'm naggin'. So, thts all for tday ;D

p/s: i'm so gonna go danny's place for ps3! :]

kkthx,
Bye.

Studies abroad

2008-05-16T20:27:00.000-07:00

Sheesh. I hve no clue wht I want in future. N levels are nearin' yet I did my mye badly. Like rlly rlly bad okay. Failed like nobody's business. %^#$^@$%!%$#^%$. After like a long chat w ko & kr ystd in schl, we've decided t go either us or aus t study next year. (MAYBE ONLY) I don't wanna take my O's in sg. Its rlly v tough for me. It'll all depend on my results for this year's N levels.

I've told momma bout it & she said she'll keep an open mind t this matter. Hve t start saving $$ cos' it'll cost a bomb if I go. I rlly don't like bein' here. Wanna start everythin' afresh w a new beginning at somewhere new :) I hope I can go, rlly rlly wanna goooo! Therefore, I hve t do rlly well for N's I guess. Just wish this will all come true! *cross fingers* Wish me luck peeps! ;D

Bye for now.
ly humans manxzxzx.

My smile is comin' back

2008-05-15T05:33:00.000-07:00

Happy Sixteen Birthday Ethel Ng! :)

I hve nothing t say here cos I've alrdy written a love letter for her ;D Hahas, all I wanna say is, thanks for always being there for me thru those times. Always advisin' me, guidin' me & of course, lovin' me :} Friends for four years & still countin. Gosh, you're sixteen alrdy. Soon, you'll be eighteen, twenty-one, etc. haha. I think I've gone too far-.- lols. Whatever it is, I'll never forget you even when you grad from hsc okayyyyyy! Hope you'll do well for your O's this year. Lastly, ily from th bottom of my ♥

Ethel Ng, my amazing mommy has grown older ;D

p/s: hees, I know you love th pressie i got for you :)

Okay, bye for now.

Life is a long journey

2008-05-15T04:46:00.000-07:00

My exams ain't v good. I'm sad. But I'll start workin' like extra hard for N Levels :) Lookin' back at how things are before, I feel rather stupid or shld I say, naive? There are times when things won't go our way. & I shall accept tht everything tht hve happened in th past, are just obstacles I've faced & I won't ever let th mistakes I've made repeat itself. Thru so much, I became wiser & ain't tht stupid naive ass like before. I'm thankful t god tht everything has ended once & for all & I've set my priority right. I've pulled thru this one. There's so much things I hve not done in life & it lies ahead of me. Its my duty t walk this journey strongly. & I know god will lead th way for me, good or bad. & Hving all my loved ones by my side. & It includes tht someone :) Thanks everyone. ily guys.

Bye.

I'll do whatever it takes

2008-05-13T06:17:00.000-07:00

Gawd, I hve like so many pictures t upload. & Many things t say too! But I'll just somehow summarize it all in short parag. :)

{ click th pictures t see it big at my phtbkt }

13 MAY, 4n2 Class Outing.

Watched 'Ironman', excitin' movie. Two-thumps up! ;D Took a class pic but haven't gotten it yet. Later went t tm w Bryan & Maria, she left later on then went t eat dinner w him, Ajisen. Not bad, met up w Hasanah & Komey later on. Then home sweet home.

12 MAY, Day Out With Clique

Finally had a day out w clique after like effin long. Okay, went t cine t watch 'Over her dead body'. V funny & sad at th same time. Not bad show :) Later went t tm t get starbucks. Slacked there till ten plus then dad came & sent me home. Had fun w you guys ;D

11 MAY, Mother's Day

Went t Raffles Country Club for lunch w relatives without mommy. She went out w her mommy which is grandmama :) Th food there was not nice & its effin' ex. Its 300 plus, & dad paid. Later on th way home, cam-whored w lil bro at th back of th car. So funny la. Didn't get mommy anything ): Had no time due t MYE. Shld be gettin her smth real soon! :D

Finally I'm done! ;D
Till then, bye.

Yes, you ain't worth it.

2008-05-09T06:28:00.000-07:00

I've thought thru, I won't wanna waste my time anymore. You've proved t me tht its over just by th things I notice. I'm glad everything's gonna end once & for all. No more looking back. 29 will be put t a stop. I won't talk about you, won't think about you, won't miss you. We can still be friends, but I guess I'm no longer th closest girl t you, even tho I knew your every flaw & strength. I've always kept things tht you've given me, including emails. There's sososo many things arnd me tht reminded me of you. I wanna throw yet don't hve th heart t. Can you imagine? Time passes like rlly fast. I've known you for four whole years. Then, I was only sec one & now, I'm alrdy sec four tht had gone thru thick & thin w you. You changed me during those months spent tgt. I'm grateful t you for all th care you've given. Thanks, rlly. Lastly, I'll try my v best never t mention you in this blog after this last post. Will rlly try. Plus forget you, once & for all.

& I was tryin' t disappear
But you got me wrapped arnd you
I can hardly breathe without you
I was tryin' t disappear
But I got lost in your eyes now
You brought me down t size now.

You build me up & tear me down
like an old abandoned house
I will never let you down
& I'm willing t love you now & forever
But you left me w no choice.

J, best I've ever had, one tht I loved most. Yet you hit where it hurts & it hurts so bad. Glad tht life's good for you, wish you all th best. ily.
Bye.

Past will always be past

2008-05-07T02:15:00.000-07:00

How could you love me & leave me without saying goodbye
Altho we've come t th end of th road, still I can't let go
But letting you go is just another way t tell you I'll always love you so.

Does it help if I say tht i'm truely sorry
And tht I never meant for it t end this way
There's a place in your heart, where y'know you'll always find me
And I'll be wherever you are, near or far.

And I never think about you, but you're always on my mind
'Cos my love for you is deep & meaningless.
Till th day you realise tht i've always been there for you, it'll be too late.
Just t let you know, you're still th best i've ever had.

Every passing minute is a chance t turn it all arnd
And I guess it wouldn't happen between you & me
Its all in th past, i'm never looking back
But no matter wht, y'know i've always loved you
Even till now.

Bye, off t study ):
(just ignore this post. i'm rlly stressed these days)

you walked out of my life

2008-05-06T06:30:00.000-07:00

I'm happy. I just received a message from someone (: haha, yes! he's online. Okayokay, there's nothing going on. I still know clearly of wht i've promised kay. I'll never break it (: yay me! Okay, today's maths paper can go suck cock la. I hve no freaking clue why am i so dumb as t not read th freaking instruction okay! This is wht happened:

Was happily yet stressed doing my maths paper, do & do then i forgot t read th instructions for section b. ' Do Only Two Questions'. I'm like damn stupid, i did all. Amazing la. Th first question was easy but as for th second was damn diff which i left totally blank. & Th last question was alright, did most of it. Mrs. Dawn came in & reminded us tht we only hve t do two questions but i did not even hear la! D: I was so into my paper. Thts why i ended up in this shyt. I only realised tht i hve t do only two of em after handing up th paper. & Th worst is, teacher said tht if whoever did all th questions, they will only mark th first two questions. WHAT IS THIS?! There goes my last question which i had th most confidence in ): Worst day of th exam period.

Eff tht shyt la. Okay, forget it. Its over & done. Tmrw's paper starts at 1130am i guess? yay, no need t go schl early. Gonna go hve breakfast w girlfies in th morning! Talking about girlfies, just reminds me of maria. I swear damn funny la. We're webcaming w each other just now & did like uber funny actions tht made us laugh our ass out. Tried communicating thru webcam but failed. hah! I don't get a thang she said, neither did she. Ohwell, i can't wait for exams t end so i can go hang out w loves!

Deep & Meaningless- Rooster

I, I don't know why I miss you so much
Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the queston why

You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless

You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had
(Damn that's sad)

There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just can't leave behind me

&& June holis, marks th start of clubbing days :D yeeessssssss!
Just a few more days & i'll go wild.

Bye.

I wish you'd come bck

2008-05-03T06:49:00.000-07:00

Went church. Nothing happened. Anyw, ystd i & krissy had made a pact w each other cos we both heard/experienced r/s tht turn out bad & we wanna make our lifes happier so she came up w this. I joined in. Only both of us were up t it. Hope komey & marea is too! But marea thinks its crazy t make such a pact. But, i trust tht i can. So, this is wht our pact is:

I, SAMANTHA CHONG HAVE DECIDED NOT TO BE ATTACHED TO ANY GUY, NO MATTER HOW MUCH I LIKE HIM, UNTIL IM OFFICIALLY 18.

*terms and conditions apply.

This may sound like retarded & may think i won't be able t fulfill it but i will! Rlly, okay. Cause after seeing so many r/s tht failed after such a long time being tgt, it rlly hurts. Just plain seeing others getting hurt/sad, made me rlly have no faith in r/s at this age. Some even spend like years tgt but still ended up in separate ways. I've gone thru it too. He told me he'll promise me a lifetime, but did he? No, but i know its partly my fault for th outcome. I thought he'll be th one for me in my whole life, just him will do but it isn't like this. Whts th ending now? He's w another. Everything is proven, r/s just isn't smth for us at this age. Tho i wished he'll come bck but, its stupid & my wishful thinking. He'll never, for good. I'm tired of all this shyt alrdy. I'm single for good & i mean it.

Guess you people may think i'm _____ t do this. ( insert own word )
But whatever alrdy la, i mean wht i say! :]
& gawd damnit, i miss th clique & girlfies damn efffing much! Hang out real soon kayyyyyy!

Thts all for now.
Bye peeps.

happy labour day.

2008-05-01T08:04:00.000-07:00

Alright, this post is gonna be long i guess? Hm, & i think i did smth useful today? haha. Went mugging w komey at tm starbucks. I rlly did study social studies like abit? Did one essay (: later i end up reading th book 'burned alive'. A not bad book. I'm only at page 45 after many weeks la. She says i read slow, i hve t admit tht. lols. Had dinner at komey's place cos her mummy invited me t dinner. Thanks! I & Komey chatted like alot. Talked about our future & stuff. Rlly amazing if th girlfies actually stayed tgt in a hostel or maybe a big apartment later in our lifes. Go read komey's blog. She like even find pics of our dream house. haha, damn cute of her.
If not, another plan is i wish i'll start a family. Just my husband, me & a adorable pet dog. I've always wished for one. We don't need hve big houses. Just a small apartment will do (: Just a simple life w someone i love. How i wished all these wld come true. haha, i think i'm mad these days, quit dreamin'! But if it rlly did happen, i'll be th luckiest girl on earth!

Its hard t find someone t be w you all your life at this age, don't you think so? I thought i found mine but i'm wrong. Things in life never did come easy. As for love, it seems like you'll hve everything you ever wanted now, & losing it all th next. I'm sure god has planned my life for me & i'll walk this journey strongly tgt w girlfies & clique by my side & face all obstacles tht come my way. For now, i'll fully put my concentration into studies, get into a good poly. I so wanna leave hsc like this year but unfortunately, noooooo! Sucks la.
Ohwell, pray hard tht later part of this year will go smoothly cos many things hve happened in th beginning. Rlly too much. It just tires me even at th thought of it. I'll put it all aside & look into th future ;D My future dream house w girlfies/future family plan. lols! I'm so gonna' stay happy! This post seems boring t you guys uh (?) too bad! hahahha!

I'm feeling rlly tired right now. Tmrw is eng paper 1&2 & i didn't study. Just gonna go memorize th letter writing format tmr morning! haha. Its gonna be midnight in 4 more mins. Need t go tuck in soon! So, i'll end th post w this quote tht i wanna share:

"The best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are.
Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome,
what have you, the right person will still think the sun shines out your ass."

Night peeps! Good luck for tmrw's paper! :]
Bye, i kinda miss you tho. its hard not t think of you.

Friends Till xinfinity

2008-04-30T04:29:00.000-07:00

amazingly amazing. I screwed my geog paper. Its like super uber difficult ): damn sad, i seriously shld say, i will fail. Ah, shyt. But poa is okay la. But, my T, P&L did not balance. In my whole poa life, i only balance one time. & tht super precious one time during a paper. I was super happy tht i even shouted hallelujah in th middle of th exam. damn happy lahhh ;D But those days were gone. I didn't balance for this one. Sadded but was okay uh.

Tmrw's labour day which means no schl! :} Maybe will go starbucks w girlfies t mug for th upcoming headache subject which is social studies ): MAYBE, & HOPE SO :] I'm chatting w yanting just now & she's like v envy how strong th girlfies' relationship is ;] like th way we actually bond. & said we're rlly cheerful & friendly people. Haha, i'm happy seyyy. Its like other people also know tht how close we are & no matter what, i love you guys! Hm, so thts all for this post? Just one last sentence t share w you guys in this post (:

Its so hard t love when there's so much t hate.
True enough(?) Think about it. ;D

Bye guyxzxzxzxzx.

Srew you, MYE.

2008-04-29T03:50:00.000-07:00

OH MY GAWD LA, I AM DAMN STRESS W STUDIES ):

tmr is geog & poa paper. i haven't started a thang yet, seriously. What have i been doing manxxzxzxzx! shyt, okehhhh, i go study now. (as if, but hope so)

screw you, m-y-e!

Bye. imy.

I ain't coming back

2008-04-27T08:35:00.000-07:00

Hey, i'm back & its like 1140pm now. Gawdd, its late for a schl day tmrw uh. I just finished doing my f&n coursework, finished it, once and for all. I'm super uber happy. Oh, went t maria's place w kris & study today. Tried t study but end up just studying a little. Damnit. Will continue mugging tmrw uh. & Guess what i'm doing now. Think you guys won't even guess it right. I'm reading mails. Mails from him. Just randomly saw & read it. So much memories on what actually happened in th past, as in little small details all just suddenly came into my mind. & You know what, i actually typed one long mail for you months ago & i'm supposed t send it t you in your old acc but i didn't. Maybe i ain't ready t send it t you. Or maybe i'll never send it. Just super sad right now once again. Irritating. Thats all i wanna say la kay.

You can only push a girl away for so long
Until she walks out of your life on her own
So be careful & make sure this is what you want
'Cause once she turns around
She's never coming back

p/s: good luck komey in finishing your f&n! ;D

i fcuking miss you la.
Bye.

Its The best you never had

2008-04-26T20:46:00.000-07:00

Pictures For Ystd At Grandma's Place.
(Celebrated Sis & Cousin's advanced birthdays ;D)

Damn this, i haven't even started mugging & my first paper is like three days away?! wtf. Gonna start mugging today. Shld be going out t study. Anyone interested just give me a call ;D haha. Okayokay, thats all for now i guess. Will be back t blog maybe at night. I'm gonna miss you guyxzxzxz! :]

It's over now.
Bye.

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN HASANAH! ;D

2008-04-25T03:02:00.000-07:00

Gawd, its been quite long since i've updated? Actually no, only four days. haha. Aiya but alot of things happened uh. Lazy t type everything here leh. But will say like only funny/sad stuff? lols. okay, one of th four days, kris told me & komey a super sad story la. I swear its sadddddd. I guess i'll just copy & paste it here from kris' blog, i hope you don't mind love!

"Tiara and Adam met in a program for teens. Tiara is th shy girl but kind-hearted girl who finds it hard t talk &open up t people. Adam has this bad-boy image who has tongue piercing but he's really a nice and caring guy. After weeks passed, Tiara and Adam got rlly close. To Tiara, he's rlly someone great. He never fails t make her laugh. Although she tells people that Adam and her a just rlly 'close friends'. She knew she has a thing for him but she just wont say it out.

There was this incident that Adam had t sort of leave th program because he had some family issues, he was rlly upset and bothered. He told Tiara that he doesn't want t leave yet because as soon as they part, they would forget each other and move on with their lives as if nothing happened. And so, months passed and th both of them got rlly close w each other. at the last day of th program, Adam and Tiara sitting together.

Trainer: 'So,this is th last day. . .'

Adam and Tiara smiled widely yet still showing a hint of sadness in them.

Trainer: 'i am not blind you know. i can tell. So if you dont mind me asking, then i'l just go ahead. . .Tiara, do you like Adam?'

Tiara just smiled to herself, keeping quiet, not wanting t answer their trainer's question. She had a flashback of everything tht Adam has done for her, be it minor or major. She rlly didnt care wht others think of him. She just kept smiling t herself.

Trainer: 'oh my god, its been months we knew each other. what's w th shyness? nevermind, i'll ask Adam.'

Adam: 'what?'

Trainer: 'so, do you like Tiara?'

Adam smiled. Tiara could feel hear heart beat faster every second. she couldnt help but just smile, anticipating Adam's reply. Second felt like hours. And then he said it. . .

Adam: 'i like her. . .'

Tiara smiled to herself, almost sitting up. it felts as if her smile could cover up her entire face. And then. . .

Adam: 'yeh, i like her. . .i like her so much t the extent i treat her like my sister.'

Tiara's shoulder sank low. her smile turned into a slight frown yet still trying t show she's not affected. All her past memories w Adam flashed in her mind as if it was a black and white movie. . ."

ohmygawdd, freaking sad i swear. Now i feel like crying. Damn this Adam who gave people false hope. Ugh, okay, another thing is sen kiat was bruised during a fight three days ago & he look weird but he's fine now. thank god. Oh, due t boredom in chinese class, i & komey put eye shadow all over sen kiat's face. damn funny i swear. Took pics of it too. Okay, moving on.....

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN HASANAH! ;D

haha, we surprised her today. Treating like its a normal day & she was kinda upset but when she saw us come out w a cake in our hand at one corner, she was so happy that she cried. lols. cute lah she. Anyw, all my thoughts & wishes are in th scrap book so ya. I won't type it here then :} Privacy eh? Oh well, i love this girlfriend of mine. Same goes for th other four of you! ;D

Okay, thats all for now i guess? Th story of Tiara & Adam damn sad right?! ): Gosh, imy.
Bye.

DEEJAY :]

2008-04-21T05:59:00.000-07:00

Normal schl but w fun assembly uh? haha. gawdd, mdm zeebee didn't come schl today or what. happy like nobody's business :D so have two free periods. Power 98fm came down t our schl w our host, Jensen. & th most excited part is, you guys can hear us on radio tonight at power 98fm! cool seyy. Took a group pic w Jensen. After schl, went t loyang t slack cos accompanied hasanah t take her art stuff so went loyang after that t get our bubble tea.

Went back schl for f&n. Didn't rlly do my coursework & instead, friendster-ing & youtube-ing? gosh, i was like learning how t shuffle from youtube & i didn't know some 5ns students are in th lab. gawdddd, i was actually rlly practising on feet & you can see me jumping up & down. Mingyang shouted my name & ask what was i doing & everyone look at me. wtf. hahaha! ohwell, danny have t learn how t shuffle w me uh! :D yay.

Okay, pictures for th day. There's one pic which is rlly funny! This guy was sitting infront of me & komey when we're on th way home. ohmygawd, look at his hairrrrrr! HAHAHAHHAHA! :]

Ohwell, fun day i guess?
Currently listening: Nothing's gonna change my love for you- Westlife.

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
Th world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If th road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead th way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just th way you are
So come with me and share th view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now
Touch me now

I don't want to live without you

p/s: his smile made my day everytime :]

Its been long my love.
Bye, irly ):

2008-04-20T03:01:00.000-07:00

Pics, Pics & more Pics! :D
(Today & some of ystd's )

2008-04-20T02:23:00.000-07:00

Pictures taken ystd :]

I know its weird t take pics w th dolls but at that time, in grandpa's house, was super uber bored so went t play th baby alive. hilarious la! Was amazing how it actually works. haha. Some pics cannot be put here. i'm angry. Ohwell, stupid fs doesn't allow me upload pics too! D:

I'm mad alright! D:

I wouldn't want it any other way.

2008-04-19T09:54:00.000-07:00

Hm, i'm super tired now. Like have been out since morning but like nothing much happened? lols. Went t have lunch w daddy then t grandpa's house t see him cos he was admitted t th hospital two days ago but was discharged ystd. He seems much skinnier alrdy. It hurts me t see him like this, getting rlly weak each day ): sigh. Later, went t church w sis. Met up w iggy/hazel/senkie/mae/leon. Didn't go t cell today. Went t tamp safra t play pool instead. Cin came.

Waited damn fcuking long for a table cos its like super crowded. Wait till in th end have t leave first so didn't play-.- amazing. Daddy came t pick me & sis. So i'm home now :] & WTF. You know whaattttttt?!?!?! While i was playing comp, i saw something black on th floor at th corner of my eye & ohmygawdddd! COCKROACH!!! Its damn big i swear! It saw me then it went back in. I screamed like a mad idiot, ran t th bed & stood on top screaming for help. hahaha! hilarious sio. Its always good t have a maid cos they are like not afraid of anything? So, my macho-brave maid came & caught it! YESAH! I was super happy that its gone cos i can use comp in peace! :D yay.

Oh, & i'm sick since like forever ): Didn't eat any medication that i have. Last night, i couldn't sleep cos i can't stop coughing. Cough from 1am till 3plus. When i cough, my throat hurts & esp my stomach th muscle, due t nafa. Was like feeling rlly terrible ): Want t sleep but just keep on coughing & coughing. Now, i'm like coughing & typing at th same time. Everytime it starts at night. Ah, fcuk th stress, fcuk th cough, fcuk love, fuck everything la. ):

p/s: pictures for today will be posted tmrw or smth & will get th speech day dance vid asap from kimmy :]

throwthrowthrow away love.
Bye, imy.

speech day

2008-04-18T08:07:00.000-07:00

PICTURES, SPEECH DAY 18 April.
(click on pic t go t kimmy's phtbkt t see it big)

Reuby oh reuby

2008-04-18T06:22:00.000-07:00

Alright today, was speech day. Did our performance & i'm rlly happy about it :] yay. Cause i know its like th last time i'm gonna dance on stage w th dancers as they gonna leave schl this year & i gave my best shot at it. For th first time, no stage fright. Had fun dancing w you guys, rlly :D Okay, i don't know why i'm feeling this way maybe cause i'm chatting w dearest reuby & our conversation seems fun & sad at some parts. lols. I know its like so weird but i feel happy yet sad. Ohwell. Here's parts of th conv w reuby:

He says senior's dance is better :D

Me: Reuby! you saw our dance just now?

Reuby: yup

Me: good?

Reuby: i was screaming your name can!! everyone look at me i oso dont care lor!! u ask miss thang la..

Me: i rlly didnt hear anything.

Reuby: and u nv hear!! BASKET!!

Me: hahahahahhahahah! i didnt even know you're involved la. is th dance good?

Reuby: yup yup. the shaking of butt is the best though.

Me: or th juniors better?

Reuby: i think u all better. th past part very good, go with the music very well

Me: hahahahahah! yay. im happy :] its like th last time im gonna dance in th schl w them so i gave my best shot. wasn't nervous at all :]

Reuby: good. ya true. the last time already. so fast uh?? bet u are going to miss them like mad la..
Me: duh-uh! no more stage performance anymore ): damn sad now.

Reuby: just now happy now sad...mood swing fun ah??

Me: no la, i think its quite sad uh.

Reuby: always when i have friends which i have time to bond with and they have to leave cos of watever reasons.. i will be damn sad la.. really got no mood for anything.. thinking of the good times can really kill already ..

Me: yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! omg, saddddd ): ): ):

later we chat about our australia trip, funny.
then t studies. & last, th past in sec one. [ th major fight betwn th sexes ]
*talked about th happenings during th fight. then...

Reuby: yup yup. thn all cry cry cry. lol

Me: yeayyy

Me: i rmb that time, whenever we girls cry, th guys will always go up t us & sing th song, i forget th title but it goes like this: ' hush little baby don't you cry, everything's gonna be alright'. aw, sweet :]

Me: AH! I MISS YOU ALL!

Reuby: ya lor. ah yo..and we are taking our national exam already.. so fast..
Me: ya! i will be freaking sad if we ever seperate

Reuby: ok dont say le..

Reuby: if tmr i die. how?

Me: i'll cry

Reuby: will be damn guilty la!! knowing that samantha will be missing me!! LOL

Me: cry like mad. haha!

Me: so must be careful in everything you do.

Reuby: ok. hahaha, you oso hor??!!! better becareful in watever you do!!!

Reuby: starting from this very very moment!!

Me: haha! yeayy i will man.

there's missing parts la. too much t show & don't wanna show some due t privacy. Hahahaha! I rlly miss you all now lah! Esp Rocker Family! ;D Ohwell, th pictures taken today by kimmy will be posted on th next post :]

Getting thru th days, w a fake grin

2008-04-17T02:26:00.000-07:00

Glad that today was quite fun at th ending part? Haha, took stupid/funny/retarded/ugly/unglam pictures w komey. Lols. Was damn funny.

Bye, will post later :D

Denial

2008-04-16T08:31:00.000-07:00

thanks for dinner today :] & yea, still friends. (will try)

Replies t all th tags:
Thanks y'all who have been there for me. Esp th girlfies. I love you guys alot :] & Geraldine, its th difficult times we both have t face uh? We'll pull through, no matter what. I want you t be happy too! :D

Another day without you

2008-04-15T08:45:00.000-07:00

I'm super duper bored. Webcamed w ansen & yijie. Ansen was super shy so like webcamed for 2mins -.- Later Yijie asked t webcam so agreed. Was damn hilarious la. Making stupid faces & we both have t make each other laugh w ugly faces. Many stupid retarded actions too. Hahaha! :] Dumb la. You're still th same uh, always joking arnd like so cheerful. & Thanks for entertaining me :D Meet up soon kay! :]

Time check: 0011am
Wow, bored like nobody's business. You're like online in your new acc. But hope you can online in your old acc. Don't know why. Rlly wanna like talk t you la. Kept clicking your conv like an idiot. Typed 'hi' then go backspace ): omg. & I'm dying of boredom alrdy. Currently listening t Tonight- FM Static. Like keep repeating it. Awesome song :]

Tonight I've fallen & I can't get up
I need your loving hands t come & pick me up
& Everynight I miss you
I can just look up & know th stars are
holdin you, holdin you, holdin you tonight

imy, imy, imy like fcuk! ):

I give my all, to have just one more night w you

2008-04-14T07:28:00.000-07:00

mom's not in sg. & coming back next mon. amazing.
sigh, i miss mummy & imy ):

I miss you, i really do.

2008-04-14T05:36:00.000-07:00

When can i totally get over you? When can i rlly talk t you & not get hurt? When can i ever let go? When is all these gonna end? This is gonna take me long. Its gonna begin all over again, like those days when you left me in 2007. So many things had happened t me in this short 2 years. It just tire me out totally. Yes, maybe i won't pull through without you by my side. But those things you've taught me, made me strong & faced problems without running away from it. I managed t solve everything slowly. But more & more problems are surfacing this year. I can't take it anymore. Its just in th matter of time that i will just break down. I really love you ='(

There you are, holding her hand
I am lost
Dying to understand
Didn't i cherish you right
Don't you know you were my life

Even though I try, I can't let go
Something in your eyes
Captured my soul
And every night I see you in my dreams
You're all I know
I can't let you go

I know you don't need me, don't need me at all.
I'll slowly disappear in your life...
Bye.

Time does not heal everything

2008-04-13T02:01:00.000-07:00

Had lunch at vivo w family w/o mummy. Head t queensway, godma & family was there. Sis got her contacts. She was learning how t put on. Now, home. Thats all.

I love you a lot,
I told you once, but you forgot.
If I die, before you do,
I'd go to heaven and wait for you.
If you weren't there on th Judgement Day,
I'd know you went the other way.
I'd give back those angels wings,
And go to hell just to be with you.
Just to prove my love is true.

The course of true love never did run smooth

Bye, till then.

All These Waiting Just Worn Me Out Totally.

2008-04-12T07:30:00.001-07:00

Watched movie w family today, 'Run Papa Run'. Not rlly good. Picture below is taken this morning. See th ugly eye bags i have. Side effects for last night.

When i woke up, th first thing i thought was you. Looked thru pictures, th past just seems like ystd. Everything is gone in just a flash. I tell myslef t be strong & my day was fine but when it comes t night, it begins again. Its this cycle. Th moment th day is ending, i'll start thinking of you. Thinking that one day had past not talking t you. One day and still counting. Wondering when is this going t stop ='(

I, Had alot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
Cause everything inside, it never comes out right
and when i see you cry, it makes me wanna die

I'm sorry i'm bad, i'm sorry i'm blue
i'm sorry about all the things i said to you
and i know i cant take it back

I love how you kiss, i love all your sounds
and baby the way you make my world go round
and i just wanted to say, Im sorry

i rlly miss you & those days. bye.

2008-04-11T06:58:00.000-07:00

I don't wanna do this but after so long i haven't forgotten you ): I mean, i have not moved on. Till now. Gonna be a year alrdy. How time flies. There's like too much to erase, too much to forget. I can't do it anymore. I decided to avoid you because you have a r/s to fulfill. Its not your duty to come take care of me anymore. I want you badly, yes i rlly do. But you've chosen her alrdy. You have a girlfriend. I can no longer hold you like before, no longer have you as mine, no longer call you as mine. I'm your past, she's your future. You have a ring there to remind you every now and then. I didn't wanna end this friendship we have but its like our friendship seems something more than that. Ask yourself if i've said anything wrong. I've always been waiting for you since th start but its tiring. I can't hold on much longer. Everytime when you say you're meeting her, do you know how i felt? omg, tears are falling. fcuk. I don't know what else i can do, cos talking to you just make me... argh. Its rlly heartbreaking to say bye to you. Really. Sigh, sis not gonna be sleeping w me tonight, i'll be alone. All alone. Its been long since i cried ='( Just take real good care of yourself since you're sick today okay.

But am i rlly hanging on to nothing? ='( i couldn't decide anymore, tell me what to do.. & i know i mean nothing to you. Losing me as a friend, is nothing since you said friends ain't everything. She is.

ily, 29 ='(

2008-04-08T21:45:00.000-07:00

Alright, now i'm in th comp lab once again on th last day of HEW :] I shall backtrack abit & share about what happened ystd uh.

8 April - Day Two Of HEW
Its me, reuby & danny's turn t do our practical! Gosh, at th first part, was quite relaxing cause i thought got alot of time t waste but no. omg lah. I & reuby struggled while danny just smoothly finish his dishes in just a short period of time lah! You know why? Cause he practised th four dishes for two times uh. Me & reuby didn't. But we survived in th end :D yay. However, my food are all inedible. My pumpkin soup is like rock. wtf? Okay, moving on. Later in th afternoon, went t th Army Museum. Was fun for me! Cause i'm like th best markswoman :] Shot 8 terrorist eh! So happy okay! After that nothing much happened. So that shld be all? Let's get back t today then :D

Today - Day Three Of HEW
Nothing much today. Guess its gonna be boring & stressful cause our work that we're supposed t do for th week is due today. wth right. Alright, diediedie. Ohya, kris & komey finished their practical alrdy! They did like muchmuchmuch better than me luh! Their food are nicer & edible. Unfair, ohwell. Oh! I rmbed smth. I was chased by a madwoman ystd in White Sands lah! She's th woman thats always outside Hsc w a plastic bag on her head. Got any clue who she is now? Yes, its her. She scolded me in Hokkien just all of a sudden & chased me. Lucky komey was there if not, i'll die i guess cause she's mad! She can do anything la! Scary much! I'm like traumatised ):

Time check: 1.22 pm
Its only one plus. Another like 4 hours t go? Damn lazy t f&n now. Kris is looking at me blog like a idiot. & She kept asking me t replay th song Take The Bow- Rihana. Nice song. Komey is not sitting w us today. She wayyyy infront today cause somehow th comp lab's comp is not enough & Bryan is beside me. He has been singing since like forever lah. Noisyyyyyyyy! Gonna go search for th lyrics for th song :] Hold on... Alright i'm back. Lols. Here's th lyrics :]

And don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not (mmm),
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught (mmm),
But you put on quite a show (oh), You really had me goin',
But now it's time to go (oh),
Curtain's finally closin',
That was quite a show (oh),
Very entertainin',
But it's over now (but it's over now),
Go on and take a bow, ohh.

And the award for the best liar goes to you (goes to you),
For makin' me believe that you could be faithful to me,
Let's hear your speech out,
How about a round of applause,
A standin' ovation.

But it's over now

Time check: 2.28pm
Just finished helping my dear danny do his blog. Haha, he's super fickle-minded i swear. But managed t help him uh. Shyt, haven't started my f&n! How la! Just changed my msn nick t ' Gonna do f&n now! Seriously! ' Must rlly do! Haha, msn nick equals t my motivation :D So, shall do it now! yay.

Time check: 3.38pm
omg. Reuby took photo of Komal's ez-link pictures & sent it to her thru hotmail. Hahaha! She's like super angry now. He mass sent it to everyone! omg. Komal's rlly mad now! She like wanna shoot herself. BANG-BANG!

Time check: 4.10pm
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Guess what, Reuby just fell off th chair like, 'KABOOMM' Like all so quiet doing f&n and he just fell on the floor damn loud. Using earpeice also can hear him! FUNNY SIO! Guess its karma cause he disturb Komal. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!! :D joke of th day or what! Reuben equals fall-off-chair-boy! LOLS! Dumb slug.

Time check: 4.35pm
Reuby told me a joke. Damn funny i swear! & now reuby, danny, iggy & chih kai like pretending t be fighting muay thai! WHATHELL! They're moves like bird seyyyyy. HAHAHAHAHA!

Time check: 4.50pm
Alright, i guess stop keeping track of th time alrdy. Hahaha, that shld be all for today & Reuby is like th mark of th end of HEW with his fall?! Lols. Funny. Love this bunch of darlings. & Komey, don't be sad lah. Cheer up! aaja nacheley! wtf? oh & dear bryan who's like sitting next t me, don't be so stressed up lah okay?! Oh shyt, Ms. Thang just said that th due date for th work is tonight & i'm not even half done. Shyt. Okay, thats all lah.

p/s: i wonder will i fall once again. ): you rlly had me going.

Bye.
ily.

2008-04-08T18:35:00.000-07:00

ARMY MUSEUM TRIP PICTURES :]

ROOFTOP PICTURES :]

2008-04-06T22:51:00.000-07:00

F&N- Hai Experiential Week Day One :]

Its th second post for th day. I feel stupid. I'm in th lab, doing nothing, just staring at th comp. Sometimes, when you actually have th whole comp t yourself for th whole day, you will always just end up staring at th comp lah! Idiotic. Don't even know what t do. Blog & blog is what i can do. Haha! Gonna stop here till smth amazing happen :D

Time check: 3.38pm,
We went t camwhore w reuby, danny, mingchu, kris, komal, maria. We did stupid things tgt i swear! We went t th rooftop & took pictures. & Its at the schl rooftop okay! Damn thrilling lol. We went up, & cause the schl is like some dead schl w no teachers or students arnd cause its Hai Experiential Week. The girls all had difficulty climbing up uh. All never wear pants inside th skirt lah! In th end, we put cam on self-timer & 'click,click!' Only two. Damn saddening. Cause one stupid, old, malay cleaner spotted us from one corner quite faraway. Wah, we like never run away like ah hai right. Hahahahahahhahahaha! Joke. Camwhored abit at some other seats then headed back t comp lab :] Pictures will be posted up maybe tmr!

Time check: 4.16pm,
Ms. Thang came in, realised that i haven't even started doing my f&n so, ya. Gonna stop here & i alrdy gave up doing. Ohwell. Will continue th blogging of H-E-W tmr! ;D

Bye.
imy ):

2008-04-06T18:56:00.000-07:00

Cause maybe everything's gonna just end like this or maybe it didn't even started. Stupid. Ah, whatever. I couldn't be bothered anymore. Wonder how you'll feel if i ever just stop talking t you & like end th friendship & pretend we don't know each other. Feel nothing? Fcuk. Alright, back t reality. I'm in schl now. This week is Hai Experiential Week. Gonna f&n th whole day. Gosh, f&n-ist lahhh. & Yes, i changed my skin, again! :] Lols, i know its dumb or what but i get sick of my skin after awhile uh. Hahaha! Alright, gonna like stay in comp lab till 5pm today ): Sadded. && Lastly, imy/ily/iny! ):

Bye.

2008-04-06T03:30:00.000-07:00

Currently listening to: All Out Of Love - Air Supply

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you're hurt too but what else can we do,
tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you?
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone...

2008-04-05T04:22:00.001-07:00

Thats all. Bye, i'm sad once again ): This post is meant for you

Now everytime I see you, I pretend I'm fine.
When I wanna reach out to you, but I turn and I walk
Baby I must confess, we were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best in th past & don't forget about it

Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you when it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

Oh, you're in a new relationship
But we both know nothing comes close to what we had, it perseveres
That we both can't forget how big we used to do it

She'll wanna have like you know how this lovin' used to be
I bet she can't do it like me she'll never be me

You're th only one who rlly knew me at all.

2008-04-04T06:13:00.000-07:00

Throat's getting better but its still painful ): Went t schl, nothing interesting happened. Life's getting so boring i swear. Slacked at tamp & i'm home now. This post is just gonna be short & sweet alright. Lastly i wanna say, i rlly love you. Somehow, you just keep appearing in my mind ): I'm rlly at lost of what t do. I can't make a move anymore. I need t stop all these. Cause maybe i mean nothing t you. Sigh.

Bye readers, night.

2008-04-02T19:34:00.000-07:00

Gah, i'm like feeling so bored & sick ): Realised that there are like alot of pictures that i haven't uploaded uh. So decided t just upload it. I didn't go t schl today. Down w fever, body aches & v bad sore throat. Have been sick since ystd so he took me t th clinic :] Thanks for everything, rlly. Esp, th yoko yoko. Hahahaha. Anyw, my eyes are fine now. Just that i hurt my cornear & its infected. It takes a few days t recover. Basically, this week is like a injured/sickly week for me uh. Stupid. Ohwell, here's th pictures :D

[30 March.]

[Sports Day]

Cos i do cherish you, for th rest of my life
You don't have to think twice, i will love you still
From th depth of my soul, it's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do i love you this much- well i do.

Samantha.
In th end, I wanna be standing at th beginning w you

2008-03-31T02:14:00.000-07:00

I'm not feeling well now ): Everything seems wrong. I don't know whats happening. & I guess i need t go hospital. I'm not lying. Ystd, when i was removing my colour contacts, smth drastic happened. I managed t take out th contacts on th right eye but not th left. I struggled real hard & realised that it isn't in my eye anymore. Instead, it went into my eye & i meant went inside. I couldn't find it at all! Was super scared. At that point of time, my eyes like tearing & red alrdy. Mum & sis helped me find but there's like nothing. So i ran t th mirror & see it myself again & i saw it! Ask sis t helped me pull it out. Its like at th cornear of my eye. I was like relieved but when i found out that its only half of th contacts, i almost faint i swear. So till now, my another half is inside my eye. Guess it'll be like sharp enough t cut my eyeball. Argh! I couldn't be bothered anymore. If i'm meant t be blind then let it be.

Love is purposely created by god like that.
He wants us to prove that in love, trust is very impt.
To show that whatever past th others may hold,
you'll love him for whatever past he holds.
I love you, i rlly do love you.
I will not take into account what other people say
Cos' i will love you, for who you are.

You may be guilty for what you've done & wanna be punished for it but i'll tell you what, i'll take that blame from you & let th punishment be on me. Cos of you, i'd do everything, my dear.

Samantha.
I know i can't be th only special one you used t say i am =(

2008-03-28T06:52:00.000-07:00

This is rlly hilarious! :D I want a baby like this! Hahaha! Watch it. He's super cute i swear!

2008-03-25T19:55:00.000-07:00

Alright, i have no mood to post about daily life & stuff & just wanna say this particular thing to that someone. Hm, some things have happened between naia, hasanah & maria. I don't wanna hide th names cause, i want you guys to see & understand how i feel about this whole thing. I mean, naia, you're rlly crude with your words on your blog. I was rlly amazed by what you actually wrote on your blog. Yes, its your blog and you can post whatever you like but its like after all this while, you're like just treating us as a substitude for Jet?! You just like don't even care if you lose us or what lah. I'm rlly mad at how you actually say maria & hasanah on your blog. & Th v first thing is, you made us wait for you like dogs. Secondly, you post about us on your blog using wonderful words like 'fucking' & etc. Shall not write more if not i'll become like you, so, vulgar. & You know what, we all treated you as one in th past but you just wanna make things difficult for us to keep you in as one.

& Since when we come to you just because we need you? Please, hasanah & maria came to ask you for help w th blogskins is because you are their friend & we know you're good at it. Friends are like supposed to help each other. & Th worse thing is, everytime you voluntarily want to help us do th blog, for example, maria, you want something back in return?! Let me tell you whats th defination of volunteer.

"A person who voluntarily offers himself or herself for a service of one's own free will, WITHOUT asking for anything in return" Get it?!

I know i'm just like a third party in this but i was there that day & was rlly mad at you too. I know you're gonna say i'm a kpo or say i'm siding hasanah & maria cause they're my friends but, no. I'm siding who's right & who's wrong. What you did wrong to Hasanah is, you promised her to help her do blogskins since last Thurs and you dragged it till Tues & when we're gonna head to your house to get it done, you just kinda like forget about everything after receiving a msg from Jet & just leave us behind. Aren't we like a substitude to you? You ask yourself lah. I understand that Jet is someone impt to you but since you know its gonna be long talking to Jet, why can't you just cancel th thingy & postphoned it to another day? & Instead, you made us wait for you like idiots.

As for maria, you promised her as well to help her do th cbox. You said she's like always bugging you & all but please, you can ask diana if maria did bug you for it. She only asked you once in awhile. She won't keep asking if you keep your promise & do it for her on that day itself when you said you needed 5 minutes then you'll help her. So, its your fault that all these actually happened. Blame no one but yourself. You won't wanna care about arguements or whatever, is your problem. We won't wanna argue with you either.

& Are you sure you're willing to go th extra mile for a friend? It hasn't been proven yet, & guess it'll never be proven in a zillion years. You made up w your old friend, Jet and at th same time, lost 6 other friends that have been there for you all this while when Jet shelfed you aside. V happy right? Stay happy then. We won't have anything to do with you anymore. & Comeon, we're not judging you, we're stating th facts that have been proven. Lastly, DON'T stick your nose into stuff about Liana anymore cause you have no right to do so.
Thanks alot.

LOTS OF ♥,
SAMANTHA

2008-03-22T04:18:00.000-07:00

Hey readers. I haven't blogged for three days & i swear alot of things happened. Many peektures to upload but th stupid idiotic irritating blogger is being a bitch, not allowing me t upload all of them. So just gonna upload th peeks on 22nd. Went out w mum on Sat. & I know something rlly bad actually happened on good friday. Ain't a good one for me tho.

I quarreled w mummy first thing in th morning. Was rlly pissed w th way she do things luh. She cancelled my outgoing sms & calls luh! D: So currently, i can only receive sms/calls & can't sent sms or call. Super bad situation i tell you. So, i did smth stupid. Packed all my stuff & ran away from home. Many things happened in between but i'm rlly lazy to explain. Went to Komal's house for th time being. At night, went for a party w Komal but later in th night, sis called, say that i have to go home before ten if not mum's gonna make a police report. Blahblahblah, so, i have to go home. Reached home, mummy talked to me.

& For th time being everything shld be fine i guess. Never quarrel w mummy alrdy. & As for today, was home whole day & out at night with hill. Now home. I'm tired. Gonna try uploading th other peeks & backtrack about th past few days another day uh.

This are th peeks on 22nd.

p/s: i won't be able to reply any smses or calls but i can receieve. So anything, just beep me (:

So, goodnight everyone :] Bye.

2008-03-20T07:42:00.001-07:00

Hey, just gonna blog about th rocker family! :] Haha, um, th five of us have been thru alot since sec one? There's so much memories tgt. Esp in sec three. We were bonded even closer to each other. After so much, i don't know why we drifted apart in th ending of last year till starting of this year. Maybe its because of th changes in classes. Everything somehow went wrong. Its scary to lose you guys. I mean its like, i cannot imagine th life in school without both reuben & danny. That day when you wanna talk to us, i've pictured th outcome of us, walking past each other without even smiling or saying hi and just ignore. Its just heartbreaking. However, i'm really glad that we've not become like how i've thought it will be but another different situation (: Having us back tgt again is like, i don't know how to explain but i'm really happy! :D Everything's back to normal and we're even closer now. Gosh, i love you guys so much! :]

Much Loved, Samantha
Th Rocker Family :]

2008-03-18T05:31:00.000-07:00

Danceworks, Haibrid Video! :D

Another view of th dance (:

2008-03-18T02:27:00.000-07:00

Hey readers! Haha, i haven't blogged for three days. So maybe i'll have to backtrack first before i say what happen today? Yes, i shall backtrack :]

16 March, Danceworks '08.
Alright, we didn't win th competition but its alright cause i know we all did our v best (: However, th thing is, i just don't get it why we didn't win th best supporting team luh. Maybe its just because our supporters didn't wear school uni or smth. Weird. But thanks for coming down to support :] You guys were great! Haibrid & Hainergizer, you guys were awesome on that day! You guys rock my worldxzxzxzxzxz! :D Anyw, i'll get th video of our performance soon!

17 March, school reopen.
Um, i don't think there's anything special or funny that happened uh.

18 March, condolences, hscs' security guard.
Its really shocking. Th v first thing i heard in th morn is this bad news. Guess th whole school knows about it alrdy. Our dear security guard had left us, & i mean left th world. Its so sudden. Thinking back, he used to lock us up & don't allow us to leave th school (playing w us), say goodbye to us real loud & i rmb during th days when we need to go back to school for dance, he's always sitting there, & greeting us w this bright smile. Mr. Daz said that ystd, he interacted w most of th teachers. Somehow, i guess he knew he's gonna leave us. He passed away peacefully in his sleep. Shld be a heart attack or smth. Its really sad.
Condolences, Hai Sing Catholic's security guard, Al-Fatihah.

" There'd be days when you get home from a party & forget what th fun was about.
Or have a v long intimate conversation, yet feel there's still words left unspoken.
Or embrace your special someone, yet never have th strength to say you care.
Life tells us that happiness is never absolute.
So while its still there, seize th moment cos it may never come again. "

Replies to Tags:
Marea: Hahaha, i guess you don't get her? ***** claims that i'm w her man or smth? Amazing uh. I have her man. Lols. Nonsense luh.

Iggy: Hahaha! Yeayyy. Maybe every man i see, i shall stay away luh uh. Including you? Lols! Cause maybe every man in th world is hers. :]

The Dreamer: Lols! Everytime i got into this. Just don't get why they can't just put their beautiful name there so as to justify if i am w her man or smth? Lols. They're always sprouting nonsense. Hahaha. Ignorance is bliss lah babe. (:

Helping hand: Haha, yeayy manxzxzxzxzxz! :D

Yours sincerely,
Samantha.

2008-03-15T05:39:00.001-07:00

Everything has became so, cold, unfamiliar. Mummy talked less w me. She wants me to pay my own phone bill from now on. Argh. Didn't leave home cause many stopped me & nevertheless, Danceworks is just tmrw. I hope it really doesn't affect my performance. I shall just, ignore. Ignorance is bliss uh. Hm, ohwell. Went to watch th first half for Danceworks today w Hillary. I'm impressed w Coral's performance & th school i love th most is TangLin! :] They were all guys. Gosh, they break danced real well. Chij Toa Payoh is not bad either. However, th stage is really small luh. I wonder how are we gonna squeezeeeeeee. Ah, i'm really nervous. Its tmrw for goodness sake. Time passes like super fast luh. Have to be outside school, all ready, hair made, at 7am. Amazingly early. Have to sleep real early tonight. Soooooooooooo nervous luh! But, i know we'll do our v best to impress th judges. Just so hope i won't have stage fright uh. Lastly, Haibrid & Hainergizer'll rock th world tmrw at Grand Cathay! :] Goooooo girls! We can do it.

Bye readers, & i'm dying of nervousness! Booohooo.

2008-03-14T07:56:00.000-07:00

Fcuk everything. I'm depressed. I don't know what to do. Why does everything just come crashing down on me. Its my fault. Maybe i'll leave home for good. I really don't know what to do. People all think i have a perfect family but it isn't. I'm really at a point where i'll just pack up & leave. Its not my mum's fault but mine. I shld be the one leaving. I shld be the one changing. I shldn't have always show her attitude & all. I'm so remorseful & have no idea how t face my mum. ='( I'm sorry. I'm really lost. I guess i'll just pack my stuff now & decide if i shld leave. Bye readers.

2008-03-12T06:04:00.001-07:00

Hello everyone. I guess i've been kinda mad lately. I just cut my fringe myself. Okay, i repeat, MYSELF. Amazing lah. Somehow i don't really care if it'll be really short or ugly. I'm insane. I'm sotsot. I'm retarded. I'm whatever. Lols. Went to Cin's house today den cut my fringe there. Hill cut too. My deardear girl, cried. Haha. Cause she says its too short & ugly. Comeon babe, you look pretty with whatever hair you have. Even bald?! Hahahaha! No lah, you still look great to me :]

Reached home, cut my fringe again cause i think its still long. Quite short now. Yes, ugly. So? Hahaha, who cares! Look bang-ish now. Ohwell. Tmrw there's dance practice. I'm super tired alrdy. Everyday dance. Seems like the holis gonna be over with just a blink of an eye. Holis is like a normal school day for all dancers uh. Lols! But, its okay lah. What's impt now is Danceworks '08! Train real harddddddd. We'll do our best to impress the judges. Haha, go haibrid! & Nevertheless, hainergizers! (did i spell correctly?) lols!

Ooh Ooh Baby! :D
Damn, i'm cranky.

2008-03-11T03:57:00.001-07:00

Happy Advanced Birthday Dira! :]

2008-03-09T07:27:00.000-07:00

Hello world. Had lunch w daddy & family. Later went to meet Hill at Marina. Caught Step Up 2. Omfg. Two-thumbs up for the movie! Robert Hoffman is hotttttttttt! :D They dance real good. If they join Danceworks, we shall just sit & watch. No need compete. Hahaha! They're damn good. Here are the pictures for the day. Lastly, ROBERT HOFFMAN IS MINEEEEE! :] Hotness much!

2008-03-07T06:47:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday Daddy Dearest!, 6 March.

Celebrated Daddy's birthday at East Coast one of the place. Was really nice there, with many water skaters? I guess so lah. Lols. Um, even tho i seldom see my daddy, i still love him like never before. He's the bestzxzxzxzxz! :] He do stupid faces with me. He treats me like a princess. He say funny things that made me laugh like madddd. He have funny pronounciation to some words which really sound funny. Eg, Confiscate. He pronounce as 'Comistate.' Lols! I just soooooooooo love him lah. I love my Daddy, just the way he is.

Happy Belated Birthday Mummy Dearest!,
3 March.

Celebrated Mummy's birthday at home. Tho its something simple, but its special to her uh. Its her day that day. Um, i know its been really hard for her all these supporting the family as the sole-bread winner. & Me, always being defiant towards her and all. Just really feel so guilty now. How i wish i can help her in any way. Maybe i'll go work & help out in the family. Yepp! Imma good daughter whom is gonna help mummy support the family. She have always been there for me. Yes, sometimes she naggggs like very irritating, but i know its for my own good. Every mum won't like to nag at their own children, unless they think that they need it. Lols. Hm, mum, you're just like a role model to me. No matter what, I love you.

Pictures on daddy's birthday.

2008-03-04T06:48:00.000-08:00

Hey, back from school and all. Had dance prac today. Super tiring i swear. Kinda tired right now. Alright, i have nothing to blog about actually. Anyw, Komey's bloggie is super-duper sad plus alot of stuff lah. Every single time i read it, i'll cry. Damnit, i seem like those emo people? No, i'm not okay. Anyw, Komey, don't broad over those sad stuff and i'll always be here. & I know this time, its your turn to shine. Well, treasure it darl :]

Kris, i know things have been hard for you cause of lala*. But, chill okay. Don't get yourself too affected to this. Let's just hope she'll turn over a new leaf? Or maybe a tree? Hahahahhahahaha! :D Seriously, i love you guys like alotalotalotalotalotalotalotalot. Anyw, chubby* intro a nice song to me. Do listen from youtube. Its Still by Brian McKnight. (:

STILL- BRIAN MCKNIGHT.

Funny when you stop and think,
Time goes faster than you blink,
Nothings ever like it was,
Girl we’ve got a special thing,
Your the happiness it brings,
Is more than enough,
I know its hard to believe,
Your still the biggest part of me,
All I’m living for,

(Chorus)
I still think bout you,
I still dream bout you,
I still want you and need you by my side,
I’m still mad about you,
All I ever wanted was you,
Your still the one, Your still the one,

Its hard to breathe when were apart,
You’re that sunshine in my heart,
I keep you here inside,
You’ve been everything to me,
You’ve been and always will be,
The apple of my eye,
And I know Its hard to believe,
Your still the biggest part of me,
All Im living for,

If you love me, look into my eyes and, say you do,
I’ve been waiting all my life for someone just like you,
Baby after all we’ve been through,
Girl I’m still in love with you,
And I want you to know, I do, I do.

2008-03-03T04:16:00.000-08:00

Hello World. Went to watch Leap Years with Cin & Hill on Saturday, 1 march. Was quite nice but the ending was abit, funny. Was like laughing throughout the whole movie with Cin cause the guy in the show look like Jesus?! Hahaha! Funny :D Den, went home at 1am.

Went out with chubby* on Sunday, 2 March, to get mummy & daddy's birthday pressie. Went Suntec. Walked like hell, den finally found it. Goodness. While going home, chubby* accidentally stepped on a snail. wtf. i laughed like nobody's business and w/o looking, i stepped on another snail just behind me. Very well. Two snails died in our legs? Haha. He was sososo guilty that he wrote a prayer thingy for the snails and put on top of it. Super retarded i swear.

& As for today, its mummy's birthday! :D Just finished eating steamboat. Effing full. Oh well. Bye :D

SAMANTHA

2008-02-29T03:10:00.000-08:00

Maybe everything between all of us with you just gonna end today. I just don't know why do you still act ignorant to stuff. Losing us seems like its nothing to you. Have you ever thought about why we actually talked to you? & Do you know how much tears have everyone shed for you that day? It just hurts me so much to see all of you break down. I mean, we all trusted you and all but you've gone over the limit, overboard. I know i have no right to say all these to you cause i'm just a third party in this whole thingy but, i wouldn't say all this to you if i don't care.

Liana, maybe i ain't that close with you but i have always treated you as my closest friend like the others. Tho we always quarrel, as in bickering, or ask each other to shut up and all, i still treasure you. I've known you since sec one. We had camps tgt, went beach tgt, made retarded videos tgt, and sososo many other things ): Now, you've changed. The way you look at us is full of hatred. I have nothing more to say to you. But what i want you to know is, i'll always be here if you need anyone, Liana Abbas. ):

By Hasanah: Life there is always ups and down. its sometimes you just have to let it go you see. Things that you have now might not be forever, like a friend. Cheer up darl! =) Things gonna b okay.

A poem that Bryan composed {Took it from naia} :

'Our friendship just had to crash
its just like attacking our own blood and flesh
Leaving us as fast as a dash
sacrficing ourselves just to get slash
what do you think its best,
or do you think its just a test'

Anyway, going Sentosa tmrw! :D Wheeees. Can't wait. Ohwell. Just gonna stop here alrdy. I've said what i wanna say and hope things will turn out right. Girlfies, you guys are the best things god have ever given to me. I wouldn't wanna lose another one. Alright, bye :D

A True Friend Since Sec One, Liana. We'll rmb you, now & forever.

2008-02-28T01:28:00.000-08:00

Today's four paper is finally over! :D I'm really glad. Just one more paper to go, Maths. I don't feel like typing how was the paper today but the only thing is, its kinda diff. Simple & short.

Alright, this few weeks have been really bad for all of us. I know things seems so complicated now cause she wouldn't admit her mistakes for taking. But darlings, i know its hard to lose a friend after four years of friendship. But if she just won't come out & talk to us, there's nothing else we can do. We did what we can by telling her nicely. She just have to admit & for sure, you guys will forgive her. Its all about forgive & forget. I really hope this matter would end real soon. & She'll change for the better. I don't wanna see each of you breaking down again. Neither do we wanna lose you as
a friend, lalal*. I ♥ You Girls & I Wouldn't Wanna Lose All You. &Cheer up :]

Anyway, was looking for lyrics & found this. Just so similar to how i'm feeling right now. I changed the lyrics somehow to make it 'better'. Those in blue are the ones i changed.

Its Walk Away by Paula Deanda.

I'm gonna remember you,
you're not gonna remember me.
I'm gonna remember you,
you're not gonna remember me.

I saw you with your new girl just yesterday
And i feel that i must confess
Even though it kills me to have to say
I'll admit that i was impressed
physically just short of perfection
Gotta commend you on your selection
Though i know i shouldn't be concerned
In the back of my mind, i can't help but question

Does she bring you lunch
When you haven't eaten
And feed you medicine
When you're sick
Does she know that you like to be piggy-backed
'And jump around like a lil boy like i do?

I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away

I'm gonna remember you,
you're not gonna remember me
Walk away
I can't forget how we used to be

I guess i have to live my life from day to day
Hoping maybe you'll come back
I know i tell myself not to be afraid to move on
But it seems i can't
Though my new man is giving me attention
But it ain't the same as your affection
I know i should be content
In the back of my mind, i can't help but question

Does he kiss me on my forehead
Before we lay
Bring me to nice places
To leave a memory
Does he call me in the middle of the day
Just to say baby i love you like you used to

I guess it really gets so hard to walk away from the both of you. But i wanna tell you, i can't help but wait till you see that with me it ain't the same.
Bye.

2008-02-27T05:57:00.000-08:00

Hey, its my second post for the day (: Ya, just came home after mugging with dearest Komey. Haha, cause i super confident think that my physics file is at home & found out that its not? Lols. So, called Komey to drop by my house around seven. & She came (: MY SAVIOUR! Sat under my void deck & started mugging. Mug a lil only cause was laughing over stupid stuff like worksheets flying all over the place. Hahaha, funny. Later she went home at nine plus.

So, here's all the pics taken :D

Damn, i like have 4 papers tmrw?! Wtf manxzxzxzx! Physics, Chem, Cheena, & Geog. Shoot me, bangbangbang! :D *Komey's favourite line. HAHA. I miss girlfies now! & I hope the problem about lala* will resolve. Maybe tmrw? I really hope so. Okay, thats all.

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2008-02-27T02:17:00.000-08:00

Hello again! :D Haha, went mugging with darlings at the library today after school. Yepp, we really mug alright. Everyone was studying except for Sara & Nasry. Lols. Many Hai-sians were like there to mug too. Hardworking eh. Yanhow & Chih Kai came to our table to ask questions about physics & clever Chih Kai taught all of us Chem. Haha, but he gave up teaching me cause he says i'm hopeless?! Wth. Lols. Anyw, i saw blah* today with his girlfie. Ohwell. Here are the pictures taken during the mug! c:

2008-02-26T03:34:00.000-08:00

Hello people! :D Today's english paper is like, omg-i-don't-understand-the-passage? Its like passage A talks about um, 'Garden of Eden' & passage B talks about carbon dioxide?! Amazing lah. Lols. Just died halfway thru. &Yes, i'm happy that my poa test has also finished but i dread to see the marks cause my stupid account didn't balance! *!$%^&#!%^#@ Damnit lah.

Its like i tried balancing it for uber many times but just can't, so gave up. Anyw, much thanks to Sean Kimmy & Junze for helping me in poa ystd. Hahas. You guys are the bestxzxzxzxzxz lah! (: They taught me poa online uh. Very difficult to understand but somehow, i managed to do understand a lil.

So for now, i'm not in the mood to study lah. Lucky there's no test for tmrw if not, i'll be seriously stressed to the corecorecorecorexzxzxz! But Thurs have 3 test lah! D: Physics/Chem, Geog & Cheena shyt. Like wth! School like just wanna kill us mannnn. Damn, i so wanna graduate asap. ):

Yeayyyy, mommy's coming home on Thurs! :D Whees.

24 Febuary, out with family

2008-02-23T22:25:00.000-08:00

supposed to do a monkey face. lols.

blue contacts (:

2008-02-23T04:52:00.000-08:00

Pictures taken with sis long time ago. Somehow found it in her phone. Haha. I'm bored lah. Anyway, who's free for a movie tmrw? :D Wanna watch P.s I love you lah! Lols, bye.

2008-02-23T01:47:00.000-08:00

Hello people. I don't know what to blog for now. But all i wanna say is, i met super alot of weird/kiasu/irritating/typical/annoying people today who really makes me wanna punch their face. Okay, thats all. Bye.

2008-02-22T07:39:00.000-08:00

22 Febuary, Komey didn't go school.

Alright, today school was super unusual cause Komey didn't go school today. Reasons: Sick ): Missed her whole day lah. Another thing that happened is Shawn was on newspp. Fcuking scare the hell outta me. I'm so glad you're fine now. Hate those visitors lah can! D: Hm, alright continueing.. SO, Kris & i decided to just give her a surprise? Don't reply her messages, don't tell her we're going to her house. So, we followed as planned, ask Maria to message her say i & Kris not coming due to some test? & Maria having cramps so wanna go home. All those crap lah. In the end, went all the way to her house, surprised her seyy. She was happy, & it did made my day seeing her smile :D Oh, so lesbian-ish uh. Haha!

Cooked/played Wii/watch dvds/play comp at her house. Took some pics. Really funny ones where Maria doze off while watching the show. Funny! She like not sleeping cause her eyes are like half open. Lols! No offence darl (: Den Komey took a pic of her in my hp but Maria didn't know kris also has it in her phone so she only deleted the pic from my phone. Lols. A back-up plan learnt from f&n. Hahaha! So, blahblahblah, fast forward, and den now, home (: So, here's the pictures for the day. Bye.

girlfies.

i'm cooking lah. Pro uh (:

Maria sleeping! HAHA.

Mommy's flying to Australia tmrw midnight? Damn, i feel effing sad & jealous. Even tho she's going for only four days. How i wish i'll migrate there, & forget everything here in Sg cause it sucks right here. Oh bother. I will miss my mom lah.

MOMMY, I MISS YOU ALRDY!

SAMANTHA
eyes set to kill.

2008-02-21T02:44:00.000-08:00

F&N Day lah sia.

Hello world. Currently gonna chiong my f&n coursework cause its like due in another four hours time?! Its like super difficult lah! Wahlau, the thingy must write what stupid 'critical comments' & stuff like that. Wah, can die bodoh. Stressed lah. So, stopped doing & started blogging so as to complain to the whole world. Hahaha. Anyw, i'm like still here blogging happily lah. Hmmm, i just found out smth today. Someone told me a lie about this girl who is like, um, don't exist? But actually she like exist lah. Damn amazing. Was angry but, i won't blame you. Just let bygones be bygones. Damn, i'm nice (: Lols.

Alright, today Maria cried because of f&n. Maybe she's stressed. But don't worry darl, i'll be standing right here with you. Even tho i always say stupid stuff that make you angry, no matter what, i love you (: Ohya, when Maria's crying, Reuby attempted to cheer her up by saying some stupid jokes but failed & instead, i laughed like hell. Its super funny i swear! Here's the jokes he said.

1. Is Happy a male or female?
Male. You know why? Cause Happy MALE! (Macdonalds.) Funny sio.

2. What's Happy's occupation?
Its Happy-NURSE! ( correct pronounciation, happiness ) AHA!

3. What's Happy's surname?
Lee. You know why? Cause Happy-LEE! ( correct pronounciation, happily )

Damn funny right?! I know its lame but it really made me laugh & when i told my mom the joke, she almost dropped her bowl of salad. Haha! When i tell the jokes, i keep asking people to give up cause i wanna say the right answer! Lols. I'll laugh while saying it. Damn, this is so funny. Alright, anyway, Junze, thanks for your poem you wrote. Its sweet/sour/bitter/salty. Lols. I'll try to write one for you but, guess you'll be disappointed cause i have no idea how to compose one myself. Haha. Opps XP Here's the poem he composed for me (:

As i sit to write and think
Thoughts of you overwelms my mind
Words just don't come to me just thru pictures and feelings.
I see you, within me.
I closed my eyes and imagine,
that look from your face as more than beautiful.
We may not be the best we are
No matter how difficult things can be,
In the long run, you will still have me :)

Thanks lah. HAHA, alright, now i seriously have to go do my f&n alrdy! Hope you guys did laugh at the jokes. Lols! :D Take Care people. Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

You blow a kiss but it just don't feel the same
Cause I can feel that you're gone
I can't bite my tongue forever, while you try to play it cool
You can hide behind your stories, but don't take me for a fool

You can tell me that there's nobody else (but I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself (but I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want, but I know, I know
Your love is just a lie
It's nothing but a lie

SAMANTHA★
True Love Does Not Have A Happy Ending, Cause True Love Never Ends.

2008-02-20T06:42:00.000-08:00

Gig's video! Enjoy lah.

Hanging By A Thread (:

2008-02-20T06:06:00.000-08:00

Past pictures.

14 Febuary, Valentine's Day.

16 Febuary, Gig.

Today (:

2008-02-18T18:02:00.000-08:00

16 Febuary, Gig.

All i wanna say is that the gig is superbly amazing. Really enjoyed myself there and met many other friends? Haha, band people. Went there with Naia/Maria/Liana. They're all naia's friends. Friendly lah. Yeayyy to 'Hanging By A Thread' manxzxzxzzxzx! :D They played really well okay. I support local bands or whattt. Amazing lah you guys (: Whees~

18 Febuary, Monday.

Alright, what happened ystd is normal school day, had dance, ended, and met up with someonehe wanna pass me vday pressie. A ted bear lah seyyy. Cute or what! Whees. Thanks for the pressie! Hope you don't mind me for not getting you anything. Sorry and thanks! :]

19 Febuary.

Now in f&n class. Damn bored. Supposed to do coursework but me and Kris was like blogging. Haha, Everyone like finishing their coursework lah. Damnit. Alright, we just saw this psycho guy's friendster. omg. He look freakish-ly retarded, and alot of stuff lah. I just don't know how to explain. Okay, i'm going off soon now. Need off comp. Bye ;D

Gosh, Mr. Microphone! :D

Hotness equals $^#&$%#&^#!$&#%

p/s: Sorry Maria, i forget to add your solo pic lah girl.

SAMANTHA

That Vocalist (:

2008-02-15T07:47:00.000-08:00

This is what Komey said to me:

don't waste ur time being sad over someone who just dont care.. Might as well make urself happy with the ppl who really care. If u have to say somethinng.. just do it. For me now is.. i said what i needed.. he can go to hell for all i care. but im happy where i am now cause my gfs stood by me. Cause i realised in life not everything comes your way. and if everytime something does not work out right, you are gonna cry and sulk. den how the hell are u ever gonna move on in life. we gottta learn it now. Dont cry love. i love you for real(:

remember your past. cause whenever you fall you gotta pick urself up. your past would be your learning point kindda thing. but by remembering it, dont get stuck behind. and if u happen to get lost behind, we are here to pull you forward

as kris always says: maybe its just not our time to shine(:

well my dear. dont cry no more
i love you

2008-02-15T05:03:00.000-08:00

This week's pictures! ;D

Hello people (: There's only a few pics i have with me now. Most of them are with Maria so, will post them when i've gotten them from her. Alright, this is taken on, um, i have no idea either but i know its freaking hot that day and we have to assemble in the parade square after recess cause the hall is renovating. Damn amazing lah. Butt like chao ta sia. Somemore its like one plus in the afternoon. Hot sio. Sun like not up all the way-.- Hahaha, so Kris decided to take pics and blog about this stupid day. Guess we have to assemble in the parade square till the hall finish its make-over :]

15 Feb 2008
Hmm, this pic below is taken today at the stadium with Danny and Sara's extra hand. Haha. There's house heats so went to support loves :] Before going to the stadium, went to Sara's house and ate lunch. Ate with my hands eh! Impressed? XP Lepak till three den we left and walked to the stadium. Kinda far. Reached there, start cheering for Reuby, Danny and DaoHong. Freaking fast and amazing runners (: Funny sia, DaoHong said while he was racing, his butt cramped halfway. Like wtf lah! Laugh till i cannot take it.

Okay, later played a soccer ball whom we thought was MingChu's one. End up the owner of the ball came and asked it back. Damn sadded but my dearest Reuby went up and said to the guy: "Can you lend my girlfriend play the ball for awhile? Can not." (in a stern tone) The boy like damn scared lah! Den he pass me the ball and we continued playing. Gosh, when Reuby's fierce, he's omg-ly handsome and really looking damn fierce. You're cool lah! :D LOVE YOU!

Left the stadium around four plus den went to lepak at tm. Was searching for sundress! Cause we're going Sentosa on 1st March for Hearul's bday! Excited much! Saw the prices and all. Gonna save 'kechings' and find one day go buy all the stuff with girlfies. Wheee! Ohya, bought two rings and a twirly earing for my piercing. Nice {: Yeayyyyy, imma happy momma lah. Can't wait to get all the stuff.

p.s: i'm so looking forward to Sentosa outing babeyy!

SAMANTHA♥
My will is something that you can't confiscate.

2008-02-15T04:31:00.000-08:00

PICTURES ON CNY DAY 4

2008-02-13T06:48:00.000-08:00

i miss you lah. i'm effing depressed ): stay happy.
ily, bye.

2008-02-13T05:54:00.000-08:00

I'm cool w/o a Valentine.

Valentines, is it supposed to be a really special day for couples and a fcuking depressed day for singles? I mean, it seems like everyone's in a ' yeayyy! i got a valentine! ' or ' sigh! i want a boyfriend for valentines! ' kinda mood. I don't know why but i feel really pissed right now. Yes, i'm without a Valentine this year. Very cool uh :] Guess i'm just gonna spend it with my friends and thats all. Just this normal day, with couples being seen everywhere. While me, with bunch of girls, spending this day! Wheeeeee ;D But the only thing is, i just hope i don't see 'you & her' outside tgt tmrw. Or i'll be.. ya, you people should know.

Anyway, i had fun today lah. Went to library with loves and started reading riddle books. Like wth! No life la uh. We laughed and got scolded by the librians there-.-
Here's some of the jokes:
1. How do you make a duck rich?
Ans: Flip the (D) to a (B) ! -Buck.

2. What flavour is always late?
Ans: ChocoLATE. Hahaha!

3. What city are made for each other?
Ans: MosCOW & IstanBULL! w-t-f.

This is by Komey:
There's a man with four wives. He named his first wife BABYDOLL, second wife CHINADOLL, third wife BARBIEDOLL, what did he name his fourth wife?
Ans: PANADOL!

Damndamndamn funny bodoh. Laugh till i peng. Ohya, in class today, Bryan wrote some poems and showed it to us. Damn, he's talented or what. He's poems are amazingly-amazing. There's two which i loved. It's below (:

How to heal a broken heart
My love for you is like a dart
Piercing my heart to make a mark
Loving you is just the start.

My love for you was like a song
Composed and written hoping it'll be long
The lyrics would ring to tell me if i had done wrong
But before i knew it, you were long gone.

Sweet right?! Better say it is. Hahaha, damn, im really tired right now. And i'm not really looking forward to tmrw. Just hope i'll suddenly drop dead and never wake up to see reality. pfft. I feel like damn emo lah. Ohwhatever, no one cares. Alright, gonna stop the post right here. Nights people. Bye.

Have a very Happy Valentine's Day to all couples out there, esp you.
& i don't like sweet-talkers. I only love you.

p.s: i'm making a bunch of valentine cards for darlings!

SAMANTHA♥
Hero/Heroine.

2008-02-09T06:35:00.000-08:00

Visiting, day three ;D

Hello readers, i only visited two houses today. Went to visit jj's grandma with jj around twleve. Was really bored there and later, i found nail polish in grandma's room so i asked jj to help me paint. Hahaha, he's like the Ah Long movie, second Mark Lee uh! Damn funny! He paint only both my thumb, and surprisingly, its not badly done. I'm impressed lah :} Den i painted his toe. Shhhh. How gheyyyyy man! So, later left there at 3 and head home. Rested, touch up make-up, cam-whored, and off to the next visit at four plus.

But, i guess today is a really unlucky day for me lah. First, mum ran to catch a taxi. Taxi stopped, i need to run. And the very first few steps of running, twisted my ankle. Painful much! D: Second, when i'm going into the mrt, shoe dropped onto the tracks, through the hole where the train and the platform is seperated at. Was shocked, tell mum, MUM LAUGH, wanted to leave train, but wasn't able to, door closed. People in train stared and laughed, cause one shoe is gone, embarrassed, tolerate. Stopped at next stop, and trained back. Reach there, sis went down to tell control people, i went to check if shoe is still alive, and it is. People came, picked up my shoe.

Effing unlucky! Embarrassed myself to the maxxxxx! Urgh. Alright, later on went to Mum's friend house. Mum went to tell everyone about my shoe story. Mum's friend's daughter was adorable. Her name is, Jaener? I don't know how to spell but its pronounced this way i guess. Ate, and left there at nine. Trained home, was super careful that my shoe doesn't fall in the hole again. Hahaha. I guess i call this an uneventful day seyy!

Pictures. (click picture to see it big)

taken on day two with mum.

nails, painted by jj (:

trying to catch snow-ie.

and yes, i caught it! Whee.
Missing dog, Missing face.

Mrt person picking up my shoe.

Jaener (:

Jaener's mum, mum, aunt and jaener.

Nights people! ;D

imu.

2008-02-08T06:03:00.000-08:00

Visiting, day two ;D

Hello world, it's day two of cny alrdy. Till now, my total amount of money is 400+ ;D Yeayy man. I see them rolling in. Haha, went to my aunt's place today. The food damn nice and i see myself growing fatter and fatter. Damn it. Anyw, took a picture with Rayden, my lil cousin. I swear he's damn cute but i just cannot take i good shot of him. Oh well. Head to Grandma's place later on as its her birthday today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMA! :] Funny thing is, don't have birthday cake uh. Left the place at eight plus and took mrt home. No car uh, daddy took it. D: So, now i'm home (:

That's all. Ciao (:

2008-02-07T07:19:00.000-08:00

Happy Chinese New Year!

Hello readers! (: Hmm, its like so tiring now lah. Just came home. I'll just post a short post for today cause i'm super lazy to backtrack about what happen on New Year Eve so, yah ;D Start visiting at eleven a.m today. Visited my godmother's house first, den to my grandmother's house. Manymanymany ang bao eh! XP Imma happy girl. Hahaha, oh shut-up. Later, go home, rested for an hour and went out with jj. So, i'm like home now :] There'll be like many more visiting to go tmrw! Tired seyy.

p/s: i guess i've fallen for you again.

SAMANTHA♥

2008-02-03T03:17:00.000-08:00

Hillary's Birthday Party at Chijmes! ;D

Damn, candid or what. Was talking to B'day girl uh.

Had a blast last night. Home at eleven thirty. Once again, Happy Sugar Sweet Sixteen Birthday Hillary! (:

Hope you like my gift ;D

Wheees~

SAMANTHA♥
Everything i do, i do it for you.

2008-02-01T18:01:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday Dear Sister, Hillary!

Hello! Its been like a week i've not blogged? Or around there lah. Hahaha, hope you readers do miss me uh XP Aiyah, actually i like have alot of pics for the week but unfortunately, i can only upload these two-.- I'm like super angry with blogger & my editing thingy. I edit the pictures den when its saving, somehow, it became "koyak". Like half of the pic is gone. Wth man. Nahbey, Nahbey, Nahbey! Booger, whatever it is, here are the pictures ;D

Guess who's this retarded school girl. Haha! ;D

These are the pictures that are like, the main part of the week or something? Yeayyy, i guess so. I & Kris was like struggling with blogger. Damn this thing. Okay, so, the second picture is taken on, Thursday. When Mr. Tay wasn't in school that day. Christian put on make-up for Ignatius. Haha, funny or what. Only half of his face was with make-ups.

The third pic was ytsd. Went to ws to slack cause waiting for cip to start at two thirty but the happy thing is, it rained so, cip is cancelled (: Then, me/kris/komey/hasanah/maria/james went to tamp library. Slacked there, & stupid people took pics of me & james -.- What-the-hell. They seem like their paparazzi. Hahaha! ;D Oh bother.

Today, its Hillary's birthday! ;] Will be going for her biggest party ever uh. Haha, joking lah. Its held at Chijmes. Big enough uh? Hm, meeting Mich later on den will head there at night. I'm like so bored & deciding if i should wear colour contacts/ contacts that make my eye bigger? Lols! Don't know lah. Currently, i'm listening to Can't help but wait by Trez Songz. Nice or what. && When you look me in the eye by Jonas Brothers. Emo shyt! ;D

I'm off for Hillary's party!

& Happy Birthday once again Hillary! ;D

SAMANTHA♥
Can't help but wait, till you see that with me it ain't the same.

2008-01-27T03:46:00.000-08:00

Parkway with family.

Went Parkway with family today. Shopped for Chinese New Year clothes but nothing there caught my eye so, shopping for clothes will continue next week at some other place uh. Haha. Ate at "The Cafe Bar". Wanted to take pics of my food but i forgotten & just took the leftovers. Lols.

Took many pictures of cute dogs & German Shepard cause it just reminds me of my sis' dog bite! Lols! She was bitten by a German Shepard dog on her middle finger. Maybe its god's punishment to her for pointing middle finger too many times? Maybe? Hahaha! But, it happened last year Dec? Damn funny lah.

So, here are the pics. Enjoy! ;D

How i wish someone would get me one of those dogs! :] Haha, wishful thinking or what. Hmm, there's dance training tmrw. Danceworks, here we come! :D Haha, oh well, thats all for this post!

SAMANTHA♥

2008-01-26T19:56:00.000-08:00

Thanks for the memories. I'll cherish them :D

Hope we're still friends uh! I'll miss you.

Shawn & Samantha, 070807 (:

2008-01-26T19:33:00.000-08:00

Cheer up, Cheer up, Cheer up! :]

I'm gonna concentrate on studies alrdy. Yes, i will. Hmm, A* i read your blog & i'm like damn sad. You seem to really love him alot uh. But he just don't appreciate you. I just hope you'll move on okay? I understand how you're feeling right now. I wanna say is, "Don't cry because its over, laugh because it happened" Both of you had gone thru alot & i guess you should treasure the memories both of you had together.

Move on, i've been thru all these & i know its easier said than done but try your best! Mhmm, tmrw, i'll go school & give you a bigbigbig hug alright? Hahaha :D Relationships are like that. If the other party isn't holding on, it will sooner or later end. I hope you'll still be the same old, loud, friendly, funny, small A* i know uh! Don't worry, I'll be there for you if you need me. Damn, feel like crying sia. ): Oh, shut up samantha. Haha. I feel like a kaypo lah! D: But whatever. I really feel like saying this to you (: (: (:

Friends are Friends Forver :D
Cheer up, A*!

SAMANTHA♥

2008-01-26T19:10:00.001-08:00

Relationships, i'll just keep it aside.

Maybe for some reasons, you didn't notice that we're actually drifting apart. We hadn't contact each other for so long & i guess you wouldn't care much uh? We both seldom meet cause of school but, its okay that we don't always meet but at least leave a message telling the opposite that you still care & will always be there? Whatever it is, i've told you i felt really insecure wih you but you just said everythings fine between us. I doubt so.

I gave in to you, try to understand you, but this just wouldn't last for long. Yes, you're also giving in at times & i appreciate that. But i've been tolerating & now, i'll just have to say it all out. I don't want to let past repeat itself but its just that i'm the only one trying to stop it from happenning & you, nowhere to be seen. Maybe, its best we just end it once & for all cause the difference between us & friends is that we have that status of boyf/girlf.

You can blame me for everything, but i won't.
I'm just tired of it alrdy. I'm sorry.

SAMANTHA♥